Week 1 - I've been on it for 5 days now and have noticed some stimulation, a little more positive thinking wise, less worrying, but could be placebo. Haven' taken any of my klonopin since tuesday, and today is friday, which is good. bu I have also been taking small amounts of suboxone, like 1-2mg per day. I had an 8mg strip and just cut a little piece off everyday since tuesday. I figure it will mask help me deal with any negative side effects of the wellbutrin, and so far i haven't had many negative effects. The biggest side effect is I feel tired and wiped out by the afternoon, and I have also been sleeping very deeply and long, and have a hard time getting out of bed, but that's been the case the entire summer. This has been one of the most depressing summers of my life, mainly because I'm broke and without a car and my 2 best friends are gone. Charlie moved to Michigan and Alex is leaving for Minnesota to go to college on Sunday. I have avoided her all summer because I know seeing her would just make me more depressed, and she hasn't made me feel like she really cares about me anywhere close to how much i care about her. But she is coming to see me to say goodbye before she leaves. I am going to try and get to my cousins tonight or tomorrow. This is turning into a journal entry, which it isn't meant to be, but doesn't matter. I probably wouldn't be writing this if not for the wellbutrin/suboxone combo, or one or the other.
Update - September 9th, 2014
I have stopped taking the Wellbutrin. I was on it for 12 days, and I did not sleep more than 5 hours a night during any of these days, and no more than 2-3 hours at a time without waking up.
After quitting, without tapering off because I was on a very low dose, I went another full week with the same exact sleep problems, not sleeping more than 5 hours a night. Then feeling a bit more comfortable with the idea of adding supplements and other drugs as I assumed (after doing extensive amateur research on the drug, including it's half life which ranges from 8 to 37 hours depending on the brand and form of the medication you are taking... I was taking the SR form, which is "sustained release") I began to take Kava Kava extract to help sedate me combined with Passion Flower extract, also to help sedate and relax me to help me sleep, to no avail, but I was at least not feeling as if I wanted to jump out of my skin and climb the walls, having unbearable RLS (restless-leg syndrome). I just stuck it out, watching Netflix and episodes. I even tried to watch some regular TV, but the commercials are just too much for me to handle, I don't have the patience for them.
Anyway, this medication did not address any of my issues related to depression other than my malaise and fatigue, but the side effects made it in no way beneficial or worthwhile. There is no way I would be able to function and hold a job on this medication. It is just not for me. I am now on Zoloft, starting on a small dose and working my way up, and after 5 days I have barely any noticeable negative side effects and it's GREAT. I just hope it makes me feel normal and gets rid of my feelings of devastation, severe depression, suicidal feelings (not so much suicidal thoughts, just feelings like I don't want to be alive and experience this mental torment but I continue to live because I would never do anything to upset my parents so much and ruin their lives. I am absolutely in love with my parents now that I've matured a bit since I was a teenager).
So yeah, I guess at some point I will write something up on how the Zoloft is working or did not work. Right now, so far so good. Nothing to report either way, which is normal, it takes a few weeks before I am supposed to notice anything remarkable. But my goodness am I glad that Wellbutrin is fully out of my system, and despite having suffered for 2-3 weeks because of it, I'm glad I went through it just so I could rule it out as a potential medication. Never again.
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